July 11 Waxing Moon

Today I accidentally deleted all of the recordings from Philadelphia. I am not sure why that had to happen but I'll take it as a chance to visit Philly once more. It will be another chance to see Ms. Lanoana and Terrence and others. Today is more administration things, housekeeping things, and preparation for the long haul and this weekend's retreat. I am still grateful. I may possibly be relaxing too much today. I need to find a balance between doing what I want and what I need. It's okay to rest at times sis. It's also okay to not think about the tour all of the time. Today I am telling someone very important to me about what I am doing. I am excited and nervous and hope it goes well.

Later that day

He said that he affirms me and this energy. He is proud of me and wishes he could have done the same at my age. That was all that I needed. The important person I needed to tell was my dad and he gave the response I could only dream of. I let out all of my plans and thoughts and sat waiting to hear his response. To my delight it invoked tears of joy as he looked between my sister and I and told us he is proud that we are doing what makes us happy. Welp. I am set. I have finally chosen a path that chooses me back and I am sure of it.

With the ecstatic support of both of my parents I feel like I can do absolutely anything.

MJ