September 04 Waxing Moon

My journal is officially done. I am currently trying to write in an unused crevice on a random page to fulfill the urge. Many things in my life are coming to a head. The continual feeling of not wanting to stronghold my life is still very present and I'm not sure why or what to do about it. I also understand that I am the only one that can provide that answer. I'm just not feeling it and I don't have the willpower to make things happen right now. Only the willpower to dangle my legs and let myself land (capoeira reference). I keep trying to convince myself that it's not a bad thing to feel this way. I'll snap out of it. I am watched and aided in every step. This I know is true. It's okay to feel this way. It's okay. Take walks, eat fruit, be happy, be with friends, love yourself, the rest will make sense in due time.

-MJ