September 07 Waxing Moon

I am sitting in the most lush bed in my mother's home in Des Moines, IA. Finally! I have been looking forward to this for a couple of weeks now. It is 6:00 am and I'm feeling so excited to rest that I can't even rest and now find myself writing. I thought Chicago was going to turn out to be a bust but actually ended up being fruitful. I interviewed an architect, a grower, and a cooperative person. That's all I could really ask for. A dear sister of mine wrote to me, "May Creator continue to wrestle with you. May She be a source of epiphanies, self revelations and love. May the journey boldly deconstruct your outlook and be a midwife to deeper imaginations, truth, and power within. I see you. Ase." I read that and was thought, "Damn!" That woman has a way with words. The part I most appreciate is the idea that the Creator is wrestling with me. While I don't think of the "Creator" as a being outside of me or with any omnipotence, I get the sentiment. To hope that their is continuous tension and striving between who I am and who I know I can be. She sent that message to me only a few minutes ago. This early in the morning she has reminded me of the work I set out to do not only for these ideas of mine but for my personal growth.

Joy is present and constantly being restored in this here life of mine. I can do nothing sometimes but sit and close my eyes, take a deep breath and say thank you so that only Creation and I can hear it. I am so happy to experience this type of freedom in my work, if only because I can show my future children it is possible. The sky ain't even the limit like Miles Davis said. Many thanks to Creation for allowing me to understand this and to be chosen to experience it in real time. I now know my momma was right- I can do ANYTHING I put my mind to and that is a fact.

-MJ